Swirling winds are in my brain now. Many thoughts are trying to figure a way to patch the puzzle together. What in the world am I doing now? Working part time at my dad's office, going back to college once in awhile to meet up with juniors, preparing to taking the SAT AGAIN in 2 weeks, going to the library to prepare for SAT, reading a fiction book while stopping for the red light, lots more rubbish, and last but not least, where to go for further education...
It is just so damned...why do I have to decide? Why do I have to worry so much? It is just so stupid...urgh.
I guess sometimes people just wanna take control of their lives, but fail to do so. Ordinary people like me. Ordinary people who think a lot. Ordinary people, who can't put their finger on what they want.
My brain thinks like this: Actuarial Science in Melbourne? February? That's madness. Total absurdity. U know u can't do it. U know u're not destined for such a tough degree...No use earning bundles of cash la, cuz u don't like the job... And AUD24,000 a year!!! Oh man, Dad can barely afford those tuition fees...=I Economics plus Finance better, save moneygoing to Singapore, $S6,000 only, can enjoy myself till August, can spend time with family...
But honestly, it is much easier to let God take charge. U don't need to bother about anything, just let HIM make the decision... and pooof! U get your decision. Listen to that still small voice in your heart...what does it say? =)

Men proposes, God disposes - my chemistry teacher